some days im a sunny summer morning in the middle of july. i laugh loudly and wear sun dresses that make me feel like im flying with every step i take. i am everywhere like rays of sunshine.
some days i am a rainy saturday night in the middle of autumn. i lie in bed pondering over my worries and cry so violently it makes me feel like all my worries are drowning. but then i get up and dry my eyes. i feel like getting coffee and smelling the rain. i am everywhere like puddles of filthy water.
but on the worst of days i am a grey sunday afternoon. in between black and white. in between dawn and dusk. in between happy and sad. i am nowhere like the sentences on the pages of unread books. purpose not yet fulfilled.
and on those days, weeks, months, where im being suffocated and crushed all at once by that unsettling lack of feeling, i am in between two everythings.
i am truly nothing."
m.r., sun, rain and depression (via decoydreamss)